Saturday, October 31, 2009

A drunk post!!

Ok...this had to be done, so here it is.

Its 4am in Sgp and am just back from a "happy drinking" session with my mates. And it was fuckin awesome.

If I take the capitalist view of my life, I am pretty fucked up. No job, and no sign of one in the near future, rapidly depreciating bank balance and soon to be kicked out of the safe world of INSEAD.

But you know what, I am fuckin happy with my life. First of all, I have these great bunch of friends that I have made. Once you leave undergrad its pretty hard to make friends for life. It is really rare and this MBA was a way to get out of the fuckin mundane life and get a big picture view of life. And I am pretty satisfied with it. On the career side, well its a looong fuckin story. But since I am pretty fuckin drunk, I think I am gonna spill it all out.

You see, I did very well in my pre-MBA career. I was making great money doing my entrepreneurial gig. What I did lack was self-confidence. I always thought that guys from Mck, KPMG or any bluechip ass are lot more intelligent than I am. This self-confidence in a way made me explore the MBA option and then I ended up at INSEAD. Today I am 6 weeks away from graduation and I have proudly accepted the fact that I am different and that there is nothing demented about it. There is nothing fuckin wrong with seeing the world in a different way, there is nothing fuckin wrong by not accepting the frameworks and there is absolutely nothing wrong by believing that blue ocean strategy is a fuckin scam. Yep, you heard it right...its a scam as far as I am concerned.

This is what I got out of INSEAD....the fuckin confidence. I always had a dream and while at INSEAD I got to live that dream. That David vs Goliath thing is in a way connected to my dream. Last night I had a major setback in that project but I am still optimistic and excited about things. Before INSEAD I had a dream, while at INSEAD I lived that dream and after INSEAD I will fuckin achieve that dream. Will it take time? Of course it will and rather it should....good things take time to come through right.

Recently I asked a dear friend of mine what he got out of INSEAD. And in his words, "I met a bunch of people who might be labelled as complete fuck ups in today's world, but rest assured these will be the guys who will do the most amazing things in this world during our lifetime. And knowing them was INSEAD for me". And it is so fuckin true. Its unbelievable.

Last week I met this guy who is doing the exact same thing that I want to do in my life. It was very surreal meeting him but it was also extremely reassuring as I know that I am not whistling daa dee daa out of my backside. I am targetting something real, something very much achievable. Of course it is a different story that very few of the people around give something like that a shot. After all, entrepreneurship is not about frameworks but more about balls ;)

Adios fuckers. Be proud!!

PS: Yes, I have foul language....so?

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

P5 !

Now in P5, its really hard to accept that INSEAD will be over in under 6 weeks. Where did it go? And more than that, it wasnt supposed to end like this? :(

These are interesting times. Everyone is neck deep in job search and success is extremely fuckin hard to come by. In good times, firms look for potential and MBA recruitment does very well. But in bad times, firms look strictly for a profile fit and this is where all the dreams which MBA marketing dept. made you believe in doesnt stand strong.

Consulting recruitment has mostly been a function of your office selection. Middle East, London, A few smaller European offices, Manila, Jakarta and Sgp have recruited. China is in the shittier end of the spectrum. Finance recruitment has been mostly through internships. And industry is going as slow as it possibly fuckin can.

I am focussed on industry and have nothing yet. From the looks of it, I dont think it will be realistic to expect an offer before graduation. The David vs Goliath is still on but it is such a fuckin long drawn process with so many variables that it questions the effort I have put in.

I knew INSEAD would be intense and quick. And officially, I am emotionally exhausted. My body can still keep up but mentally I am done. Only if I had a job, I could go back home and sleep for a week.

There will be a day when we all will look back and smile.

WTF...when will that day come!