Anxious moments !

Am getting a bit nervous now. As P4, the honeymoon is over. Now its time to wake up and get the honeymoon suite organised before checking out. Next two terms would be all about jobs and career decisions. And I have no fuckin idea where I will end up.

When I came to INSEAD, my target was Consulting in China. Pre-MBA I was in China in industry and earlier in my career I was in Consulting so I knew I could connect the dots. But throughout INSEAD, everyone told me that consulting is not for me. I am more of a doer, a hands on person which is not the case with consulting. I agreed but then again, I knew consulting would open a number of doors for me which would take me where I eventually want to be.

Then came the surprise summer internship in healthcare. It changed a few things in my life. For one, I dont want to be in consulting anymore. I love the challenge of managing teams, managing deliverables and driving real businesses. I like working with people instead of MS Powerpoint. Second, the internship re-confirmed my passion for my long term goal. The only question is how the fuck to reach there.

Well, it will be long and tough. There will be celebrations and breakdowns. A year to challenge yourself....fuck...its true. I might make it through or I might not. By December I will either have a job or I will be on a one way ticket to home. Ya...I will go home and sleep like a baby for a few days before thinking of jobs again.

Right now I dont know where I will be in 6 months from now. I am shit scared but at the same time I am anxious to see how things shape up. INSEAD changed my life irrespetive of where I end up. I became a better person for my partner, I realised my real interests and priorities in life and I blew up everything I earned over the past 5 years. Boy it felt good. I met some amazing people here, made some truly good friends and the memories will last forever.

Huh...fuck. Right now it feels like sitting in a roller coaster in the front seat. The security lock has kicked in and the ride is about to start. I am scared, I know I could potentially shit in my trousers, I know there will be an embarassing picture taken half way through the ride, but I also know that when this ride stops, I will be thrilled and be glad that I took this ride.

Guys, I am still on with the David vs Goliath thing. Its getting serious now and please pray for me. I want this thing to work. I know I am way out of my depth on this but fuck me, good things are supposed to happen once in a while right.

YouTube of the day (poor video quality though!)

Update from Sgp !!

Guys,

Time for update from my side.

I moved back to Singapore campus and its great to be back. Having lived across the campuses, I think now I am in a position to compare:

- If you are looking for relaxed, good times, go to Singapore.
- If you want to study hard and learn a lot of models and frameworks, go to Fonty.
- If you want the career services to kick ass, then go to Fonty.
- If you want to be in Europe post MBA, go to Fonty. If you want to be in Asia post MBA, go to Singapore.
- If you enjoy looking at trees all day long, go to Fonty.
- If you can either cook your own meal or can survive on donner kebabs then go to Fonty.
- If party for you is about seeing the same people every night out, then go to Fonty.
- If you want to try your luck with new non-MBA women, then go to Singapore.
- If you want to increase your chances of getting laid, go to Fonty.

Yep, that sums it all. Singapore is my favorite campus. This place ROCKS! The atmosphere is lot more relaxed, intimate and there is a positive vibe about this place which is missed big time in Fonty.

On other news, I had my first interview and got dinged. Well I kind of fucked up the interview. Important tip - dont drink too many espressos before an interview. It takes you to turbo boost mode which does not go down well with the interviewers always.

The whole gang of consulting firms is coming on campus next month. Although coming to campus and making offers are two different things. Banks are absent all together. Its no more sexy to say you are from IB.

In terms of job search, its not very promising but lets see what comes out of it. Recruitment freeze is still around in most companies and it sucks to compare the list of companies visiting Fonty vs Singapore. Fonty wins. Singapore career services needs more local folks with years of Asia experience and network.

And finally, an update for David vs Goliath. Its not over yet. I am still in with a chance. I always knew it will be tough but am glad I survived this far. I should have another update on this within 3-4 weeks. I will let you guys know what it was even if I fail. And no, its nothing to do with jobs or women. Although I could potentially get women and jobs if I am successful ;)

And YouTube of the day !